Blog Every Day in November 2015 #BEDN Day 2: Love Mondays

Mondays and I don't really have a good relationship cos it means that the weekend has ended and I need to face reality. It's not that I hate Mondays nor reality, don't get me wrong but as a normal human being, weekends to me are my haven. I get to do more relaxing and life isn't as hectic as during the weekdays, I'm sure everybody agrees to this.

Knowing that I don't personally love Mondays and after having sooo many cups of coffee, I would say today is probably my most productive Monday and I am proud of myself. I did so many errands that I don't even have time to have a proper lunch. Actually I was at the university the whole day to catch up with my research supervisor on things that I need to do prior to my convocation and I lost track of time to even get myself a good lunch. After meeting up with my supervisor, I then went to pay up my convocation fee. That too take a long time as there were so many students waiting in line to pay for theirs as well and that is the only time that I wasted doing nothing, well not exactly nothing cos I was texting too that time. But beside texting, I get to do some pondering and I get to recall on so many things, good and bad that I have to go through to get to where I am today,  finally completing my thesis and actually waiting in line to pay for my convocation fees. 

I'm not going to deny that without the grace from the Heavenly Father that He has blessed me, the abundance of supports that I have received from my family and close friends and also not forgetting the support that my ex has given me during the earlier part of my master degree journey and also the heartbreak and major bullshits that he has put me through upon completing my thesis and my research defense, I don't think I will be able to make it through to today. 

All in all, although I don't particularly love Mondays, it doesn't mean that I hate it to the point that I don't want Mondays to exist cos it's good to have those things that helps you to wake up from your constant procrastination and face the reality of the world.

au revoir,

Jess

Blog Every Day in November 2015 #BEDN Day 1: Something New About Yourself

It has been such a long time since my last post! So many things has happened during those times, you can't even imagine and one of those events that happened is actually a very unfortunate one. I would say that this particular event has demotivated me to live a normal life as a human being and this unfortunate event has changed my relationship status from being in a relationship to newly single and strong (as my bffs Michelle and Fay suggested my new status). I have shared this story on my Dayre briefly and I'm planning to share the full story here on my personal blog but I'll be doing it slowly, probably in 1 whole post or more, we'll see.

I'm still struggling to find exact words to portray on how I truly feel about this life changing experience and truthfully going through day by day knowing that your 5 years of relationship ended because the ex has fallen in love with another girl is really hard for me to accept even we have broken up for over 2 months or so. Like I said, this whole thing has been a life changing experience because I have been in a relationship with a guy that I used to love for 5 years and we have a 'routine' that we do every single, now I have to ditch that 'routine' and creating a new routine ain't fun at all. People said that adopting to new changes is hard and I can really relate to this saying cos I find it so hard to gather myself up, pick up pieces of my broken heart and adopt to a new life that I'm in right now, which is singlehood. 

Putting negativity aside, Im embracing this new life and although I am pretty sure that I'm gonna relapse and will have my sad moments, I know I'll make it through this whirlwind that I'm in. I hope that this BEDN challenge will allow me to distract myself from dwelling too much into the past and just have fun blogging.

Now blogwalking time! 

au revoir,

Jess