2014!!

January of 2014 is coming to an end. Already?! Yeahh like in 10 days time and I hope it's still not to late to wish everybody HAPPY NEW YEAR! Let's start anew and make 2014 an even better year than 2013. Good luck for those who've set their 2014 resolutions and for those who don't, just go with the flow and let's just see what 2014 have for us.

I don't remember if I've set myself any big resolutions for 2013 but I know that I did set up a few goals for me to achieve and of course one of them is the most common one, which is to lose weight. I did lose like a 2 kg before I started my postgraduate studies in September but I stop losing weight right after that cos my classes are from 7pm-10pm and because of that, I couldn't go to my usual 7pm zumba class because of the time clash. But at the same time, I thank God that I didn't gain any weight because I've been practicing yoga during the day. Phew! So, at least I'm closer to my weight goal.

I read somewhere that the key to achieve our new year resolutions is to aim relatively low. Quite cliche, isn't it? But come to think of it, I have to agree with it cos I've set up so many new year resolutions in the previous years and to be frank, I've never (yes, never..) accomplish all of my goals. Yes, I am not going to deny that I am one of the many people who are historically suck at keeping my resolutions. I only stick with the resolutions probably for a few months in the beginning of the year but after that it's like the resolutions were never even exist. 

But this year, my thoughts and views on resolutions have changed or evolved, to be precise. I think this is because I would like to feel a sense of accomplishment in the end of the year. It didn't go well for me last year cos when I was trying to recap my life in 2013, I couldn't think of anything that is significance. That moment of realization, last year for me was a blur. I felt like I've been living in a bubble. 

My approach of setting up my resolutions this year is to set some small resolutions this year which I think are easy for me to stick with and hopefully *fingers crossed* achieving them all. I made a simple list on this really cute notebook which I think really represent me that was given by Zaris. As for the resolutions list, I list them out according to how I  feel which one is more important than the others. After that, I write down small actions that I can do that will help me to achieve my resolutions. In my case, being healthy is my top priorities. In order for me to live healthier in 2014, the small actions that I wrote down are drink more water, drink less sweet beverages or carbonated drinks, eat more fruits and veges. 

Besides living healthily, blog more and often is also one of my top resolutions that I'd really like to achieve this year. This blog has been unattended for a very long time and it's such a pity because I used to blog everyday when I was younger. In fact, there were days that I posted more than 4 updates in a day. The previous 2 years were the worst cos I only posted like less than 10 posts (I think) combine. People said that as we grow, we change and same goes to priorities cos they shift with us too. But at the back of my mind, I don't want my blog to just die cos I have fond memories of blogging here and there are some posts that are special to me. So I think this year is a good time for me to revive this baby. So my small actions are to write down any blog inspirations on paper so that I will always have ideas in stock that I can use for my blog update and also to post at least once a week. 

I know that resolutions can be very intimidating and daunting especially when new year is just around the corner but let just remind ourselves that to improve who we are is a tough job and there will be definitely a  time where we will stray faraway from our goals and that my friends, is NORMAL. Failing is not even an option and don't get frustrated with it, treat failures as learning curves and adjust the resolutions so that it works for you, try again. Just keep trying and don't be too hard on yourself because the accomplishment might not taste as sweet if there is no failure, right? :)

Au revoir,

Jess

"If we don't change, we don't grow. If we don't grow, we aren't really living"

Gail Sheehy

2010 and hopes for 2011.

Damn, how long has it been since my last post?? Since forever, I know. Been not in the mood to post anything and my laziness caught up to me.


Another year had passed and now a new one just started, I think it would be cool for me to review how 2010 has treated me and I feel blessed that God has given me a wonderful year. So let's review shall we?


Lots of things occurred in 2010, bad and good. Starting with the bad, I've had really bad health. I fell sick many times in that year. Fever, flu, migraine, you name it. Weird thing was that without any reason, I fell ill all of the sudden. Beside constant illness, weight gain is another issue. I'm pretty sure that I've gained at least 4 kilos the whole year. 4 might sounds a little but not to me if it comes to my body shape. My 2010's resolution was to lose weight but I ended up gaining. Very cliché yes? T_T Of course I feel miserable after looking at my own pictures and I do feel like a balloon. Talking about my body makes me feel depressed so moving on to another one and that would be LAZY LAZY LAZY. I was a very lazy person last year and I'm so lazy with my studies, assignments, chores and sometimes even onlining. Yeah, my laziness was pretty hardcore and I must say I don't like myself because of that and it is one of my UGLIEST flaws! 


Enough with the bad and now for the good part of the year. 2010 pretty much treated me very good and I must say it is the best year for me. Despite my laziness, my grades are getting better and better every new semester and that made my parents happy and of cos I'm happy for it too. Apart from that, I have no huge financial problem though I must say I was tempted to buy soo many things, a new handphone and such but I did control the temptation for the sake of saving my money up to buy me a Macbook Pro. I know that after all the hard work of saving will be paid once I get my baby and the money that I've been saving since 2009 will all gone in a blink of an eye. Besides that, I've made many new friends through the year and one of them became my lover. HAHAHA! Yes, I've found love in 2010! Never been in love before and he came into my life. We coupled without seeing each other at first for almost 4 months and once we've meet, we fell in love even more! I think out of everything that happened, that was the cherry on top for my 2010. 


What about 2011's resolution? Many people asked me that question and to be honest, at first I thought I don't think I have any. I feel like making up goals and in the end not being able to achieve them will make me feel like I'm such a disappointment. When I answered that, someone told me maybe my resolution should be realistic, easy to be achieved. Thinking about that, I've made up a short list of resolutions that I think are achievable. 


Jessica's 2011 Resolutions
1. To be a better person, a better friend, a better sister, a better daughter, a better girlfriend.
2. To be more organized and less lazy.
3. Exercise regularly to get healthy, not to look smaller.
4. Get more sleep, well rested. 
5. Stop thinking negatively about myself and accept own flaws.
6. Get more knowledge on photography.
7. To be a better Christian.
8. Eat healthily.
9. To be a better driver.
10. To really stop drinking.
11. To improve my English.
12. To spread more love and to forgive more.
13. To be more understanding to others.
14. Not to be selfish.


Overall, 2010 was the best year for me. I may not improved myself during the whole year but I did learn many things and also from the mistakes that I've done. My hopes for 2011 is to make a self improvement bit by bit. Perfect is not what I intended to be, just a better human being.