Smartphone Therapy.

Hello! It's monday everyone! School's about to resume for those who are still in primary and secondary school, no more holiday for you kids! Not forgetting to the teachers, happy working! How was your weekend?? I hope you enjoyed yours as much as I did!

So before I go straight away to the topic, I would like you to answer to these question below :)

1. Are you unable to turn your smartphone off—ever?

2. Do you worry over running out of  your smarthphone battery power? 

3. Do you constantly check for new emails and text messages and calls, notifications?

4. Do you don’t even want to go to the restroom without your smartphone?

If your answers have more than 2 yeses, you officially have the 'Smartphone Addiction" or the medical term for it is Nomophobia. No fret though cos I'm one of you guys and I'm sure there are BILLIONS of people who are like us too. So we are not alone :) I think it is common for human to be addicted to smartphones. Why? The reason is simple, smartphones made life easier. Not only they are light, easy to be carried around, making calls, send text messages, surf the internet, read and send emails, take pictures and videos, you can also install apps that can help you to deal with the problems of everyday life like Whatsapp. In my case, I love to take picture and I used to take a lot of them using my DSLR but my smartphone has taken over my DSLR because my iPhone is wayyyyy lighter and I have all these amazing apps that I use to tweak and edit the pictures and I can upload it on Facebook and Instagrams instantly. But still, addiction is an addiction. 

What can we do about Nomophobia you ask? I have just a thing for all of us! Have you ever heard of or came across with this "Smartphone Therapy" or also known as Therapy for smartphone addict? If you haven't, then try to google it to get to know about it. From the articles that I've read, the remedy to the addiction is to spend at least a day in a week without your precious smartphone. I'm sure some of you might say "Just a day? Easy!" but do not underestimate this addiction. It may not as equal as drug addiction (I'm sure it's wayyyyyyyyyyyy less), but you have no idea how strong does a smartphone affected our daily lives. 

I'm posting this up because I'm currently undergoing the therapy and it's my 6th day of therapy today. I've been smartphone-less since wednesday cos I have to send in my iPhone to get it fixed. It was hard for me to leave it at the shop cos I love it so much, you can't imagine how strong the bond that I have between my iPhone and I. So as all of you figured out, I struggled very hard to endure the 1st and 2nd day of no smartphone. Not that I didn't use smartphone at all, my family have their own and I sometimes I borrowed theirs for just a little while but still, not using your own felt just wrong. On the 3rd day of therapy, I was getting used to it. Still missing my iPhone once in awhile but it wasn't very painful anymore. Felt okay on the 4th and 5th day. As for 6th (today), I feel better. I never thought that I can live without my iPhone but I managed, thanks to all the things that I've been doing that helped me to forget anything related to smartphones.

There you have it. Try to just spend a day without your smartphone and you will realize how plenty of time you get if you're not on your phone all the time. Crossing my fingers that my iPhone will be discharged by later today cos I miss it. ARGH CAN'T WAIT!!!! And will I maintain on doing this 'Smartphone Therapy' every week? Probably... Probably NOT *wink*

My loyal substitute. Thank you for working just fine :)

I shall be away!

Good morning everyone! I know this post is a little early in the morning, haha! I woke up early this morning cos I have some things left to pack cos I'll be away for 3 days starting today till sunday and I'm heading to Ranau, Kg. Luanti Baru specifically. NOT for a holiday but to do my research there. My research title is "Sustainable Tourism in Kg. Luanti Baru, Ranau" and hence, I'm going there.

To be honest, I'm feeling a little malas cos I don't like going on a trip but not having a holiday. I have to do some works there and I'm a little nervous that my research won't go well.

So I hope you guys have a wonderful weekend and see you on sunday, that's if I'm not that tired lah :)!
Until next post,
au revoir! :)

Stressing about everything now...

What did I get myself into?!

          mati la ni kali... *cries*

As you guys can see on the left side of my blog, scroll down a bit and you can see there's the A-Z challenge which I've decided to participate. I've already sign up and I was a bit excited because I actually don't know what to expect how challenging it could be. Then today, *Our home called Kuantan*  a blog that I followed updated and his post is about the same challenge. Reading the post made me realize that the A-Z challenge is a tough one. There are 10 more days to go before April and he had done all 26 challenge posts for each 26 letters. Now I feel intimidated and quite discouraged, fearing that I won't be able to do well in the challenges. When signed up the other day, I was the 1190 participants and that's A LOT of people will be visiting my humble blog to read my challenge post everyday. Since I usually blog about random stuff, I absolutely have no proper ideas to blog about the challenge. *die die die*

I think I should better start today to prepare some drafts related to the challenge so that I won't make a fool of myself. -____-""


Unlike me, don't make hasty decision that later will make you truly regret!
Until next post,
au revoir :(

Turn OFF!!

I'm sure everyone has their own turn off when it comes to opposite attraction. Mine is smoking. It's not that I have any problems with those who smoke but when I have to choose someone to have a relationship with, I prefer a guy who doesn't smoke. Before I met and even know the existence of my boyfriend Joel, there were several guys that are really close to me, it fact they were really 'close' that they want to have a serious relationship with me. All of them are really nice, good looking, gentleman, they have all the elements that a girl would want to have for in a boyfriend or husband even but we didn't go that far because... they SMOKE! Out of all thing, I really can't stand if my boyfriend smokes. I don't mind about his other bad habits as long as I don't see him having a cigarette in his mouth or even have one with him ( I guess that was a bit too much).

I can't really explain why I'm like that but probably because I was brought up in a family that doesn't smoke, my dad is not a smoker and so is my mom. Put that aside, maybe I was thinking about my future as well. I mean my boyfriend could be my husband and be the father to my children, of course I wouldn't want my family to live in a hazardous environment cos secondhand smokers actually breathe in and take in nicotine and other chemical as much as smokers do. Scary isn't it? Joel used to smoke but I forced him to stop and I'm proud to say that he quit because of me. Haha :D

I was watching one of Wong Fu Production's old videos ( they are AMAYYZING!!) and the video has inspired me to do this post. It's really funny too!

Smoking is cool? It's more like suicidal!

Stay healthy and make good decision :)

Until next post,
au revoir!

of internet being a bitch and a fish recipe

I've been wanting to update my blog for days but the internet is being a bitch, again! I really don't know what is wrong, it may be the connection so I called TM's Customer Service on thursday. After complaining about the internet problem and asking what causes it, the female operator told me that my internet connection is being barred. After checking the landline account, she then again told me that there is no problem with overdue payment because the bill has been paid. In my mind I was like '.. fuck yeah we already paid the bill. Why would I call to complain if the bill hasn't been paid? Duh!' but I was being as polite as her so I just keep that thought to myself. Her solution was to fail a report to *blank* department ( I can't actually recall which department that she mentioned cos she talks to fast albeit the semenanjung slang) and the internet connection will be okay by friday but the promise is a lie, A BIG FAT one either! In case you are wondering how I posted this post up, well, I have to follow several steps.

Firstly, turn on the modem and wait for all the lights to be stable then log in to my blogger and click on the 'new post' as quickly as I can before the 'internet' light dies. Secondly, type everything that I want. Thirdly and the last step, I have to redo the first step so that I could click on the 'publish post'. It annoys me so much that the first thing that I would do tomorrow is to fail another complain but this time, I AM NOT GOING TO TALK NICE! 

Moving on. I didn't go anywhere the rest of the day. With the very hot weather, I prefer staying in rather than go out and sweat like a pig. I spent my afternoon being a diligent wife and prepare lunch. I cooked up a special dish for the family and it is Fried Fish with Sweet Yellow Beans sauce. It's really easy to do, I'm not even joking.

Prep time: 3-5 minutes ( clean and cut the fish into cutlets, peel and chop onion)

Cooking time: Less than 20 minutes
Serves for 5 people

The ingredients:

5 cutlets of a medium size Grouper/ Ikan Kerapu ( any types of fish can also be used)

2 big tbsp Sweet Yellow Bean ( I used Yeo's Sweet Yellow Bean)

1 chopped Onion

1 cup Water

3 tbsp Cornstarch and Water mixture 

Salt, Pepper and Sugar to taste

Oil 

Methods:

1. Season the fish cutlets with Salt and Pepper then deep fry the fish until golden brown.

2. After frying the fish, transfer the oil and leave some for stir frying the sauce.

3. Stir fry the onion until soft and fragrant. Add in Sweet Yellow Bean and water, stir.

4. Add salt, pepper and sugar to taste. Add in the cornstarch and water mixture and wait until the sauce thickens. Pour the sauce onto the fried fish cutlets and serve!

This is how the dish looks like :)

Although I don't eat fish, I know the dish is delicious cos my family enjoyed it very much. Now you know that I actually love cooking! Please do give it a try! :D

p/s: As I've mentioned earlier that I've been wanting to update my blog, I actually wanted to share about how I spend my Valentine's Day with Joel but I will do that on the next post.



Until next post,
au revoir! x

Absence.

For the past few weeks I was absent from the social network life is because I would want to give myself a full rest for the whole semester break. It doesn't bother me anymore whether I tweet too much or too little. Sometimes whenever I wanted to tweet or blog, I couldn't find the exact words to complete the post and in the end I just give up. It's like I'm too afraid of allowing my thoughts to be too public. I have never felt such insecurity before and it's astonishing that something like this could happen to me.

Friday the 13th!

My final examination of the semester has ended on the very fine day of yesterday and I'm officially a FREE WOMAN! And yay to semester break!! Yes, I feel very and totally free after this heavy load of examination has been lifted up from my shoulder. Praise God for His grace that has guide me through those hard times. The last paper was undeniably hard but I just hope that I pass it and as for other papers, I hope I do well *crosses fingers*.

Speaking of semester break, I am actually thinking hard of how to get the most out of my holiday. Since it's not gonna be a really long one (holidays ended 4th Feb, I guess), as I tweeted (follow my twitter )...

Yes, you read it right! This holiday will be about me doing some self pampering and exercise. I want to do what I want, finishing things that have been postponing and to start a routine that I can stick to so that my life won't be as chaotic as now. All this time, I've been listening to what people want me to do for them doing things that I am forced/ have to do and ignoring what I want for myself, hence with the so many postponed stuff that I have yet to complete. I haven't been able to finish a book I bought last year because of the exam and to get my bedroom and clean and organize. I even bought this box to fill my makeup and stuff. Now that my holiday is finally here, I can just get a breather and get things done the way that I want. I can even sleep longer now to repay the excruciating lack of sleep within the exam week. Hallelujah to that! 

I know that I am not fit and that is why I am soooo in need of getting healthy so that I get to live longer. I don't want to be stuck as the chubby girl with pretty face any longer. Not forgetting that I'm already in my 20's now and I need to be in my best form to look good in my wedding dress. It's not like I'm going to get hitch really soon but we'll never know right? But all I know, sooner or later I am heading to 'that' direction and I don't think it hurts to do an early 'self-transforming' preparation. Let's face it, who doesn't want to look at their best on their wedding day. To make all that dream a reality, I have to diligently go jogging with the hope that I can do it everyday and I want to get Zumba a try. Zumba is a combination of aerobic and dancing. Sounds fun isn't it? I've heard that is has taken Kota Kinabalu by storm when Core Fitness Gym first introduce Zumba classes and now there are quite a few Zumba classes in town one of the most popular is the Zumba Party by Michelle Koh. Those who are a part of Zumba classes called themselves a Zumba babe, even a of my friend is a Zumba babe herself and I really want to be one too. I love to dance and I have a strong feeling that I will enjoy it. But before that, I need to find a class that is close to home. *another fingers crosses*

Taking advantage that I'm having a holiday right now, I would also want to work on my make up and wear contacts more regularly. I mean I really need to properly learn on how to put on eyeshadow and start to train myself to wear lipstick when I go out so that I won't look dead-ish. It's not that I don't know anything about make up, I just want to start making a real effort on my appearance; make up, clothes, hair and how I present myself in public.

Okay, it's late now. I need some beauty sleep because I'm going out later today. Someone is getting a new handphone. 

Le semaine d'examen :)

Until next post,

au revoir!

A very envious post.

My first blog of the year will be about me, lashing out everything that I have in my heart. By the way, Happy New Year to my dear blog. Another year had passed and let's hope that I will be more diligent to update you kays?? :) Now let's get to my 'lashing' part.
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Before continue reading, please bare in mind that I'm just a human being with emotions, thoughts, point of views and flaws. In fact, lotsss of flaws. In this post, I will be lashing out my envy towards other people that I know, strangers that I meet here and there or now and then. But of course, no name mentioning so that no one will get 'butthurt' or 'terasa'.

Let's get real. Who doesn't get envy or most people say JEALOUS? I don't believe that there is one human on earth don't get jealous, like for real. As a matter of fact, I'm a very envious person. I repeat, VERY! Maybe some people think that I live a simple, uncomplicated life. Well, that's partially true but to be honest, I envy those who have interesting lives than mine. Interesting like going out every night to hang out with friends without parents wanting to know my whereabouts all the time. But having parents that don't approve of that kind of lifestyle makes it hard for me to live the life that I want. My parents are not strict or what but they tend to be a little protective of me and my younger siblings. Maybe they still think of me as still a kid and they aren't ready to let go of me and treat me as a grown woman. Sometimes, I can't help to be envious of those who have cool parents that let their kids go out almost every night or bring their children to have dinner outside. Those lucky kids have at least better lives than mine, or should I say they have a LIFE! Unlike me, staying in all day and stare on my laptop, reading other people tweet about how awesome their night are, where they went out to eat.

Women with gorgeous figure, I envy them VERYYYYY MUCHHHH too. I'm blessed that I have a good sense of style but I want to be able to wear all those pretty clothes without worrying and fretting will they fit me. I sometimes hate seeing myself in the mirror. I don't like to see those extra chunks lingering around my body. I still have those moments when I feel sorry for myself for being so 'chubby' and it depresses me even more when I go out, saw some pretty little dresses on display and knowing that I won't be able to wear them. Those who are skinny and slim but still say that they're fat, well that offends me. How can they say that they're fat if they put on 0.5 kilo even. Like seriously, with that amount of weight gain won't make any difference on how you look. If you think you're fat, what am I then? A whale? Be grateful that you are skinny and small, you fit all small size clothes. What more that you want? A size zero figure??

I also feel jealous of those who have the privileges to spend so much money to shop, travel and stuff. Some people are lucky to be born in a family that have deep pockets. They can just spend on whatever they like, owning the latest gadgets, able to travel the world, not having to sweat about financial problem. It's not like I'm poor that I can't buy stuff that I want, the problem with me is I think too much. I'm worried that I will add more burden to my parents' already- burdened shoulders. And for God's sake, I still have 2 younger siblings that still have a long way to go before graduating high school. Thinking about the expenses that my parents have to pay to raise 2 young children that are still in school kills my intention to ask money from my dad. Since my dad is the breadwinner of the family, we are relying to his income solely. Although my dad's job pays him quite a hefty amount, but there are 6 tummies to feed and not forgetting bills that need to be paid every month. I seldom ask money from my parents. When they ask me if I still have money, I'll just say yes even if I have less than RM10 in my purse. That's why I don't eat outside or hang out too much. I'll use my pocket money that were given by my parents only on things that are important. That's why I don't shop all the time. I can't wait to graduate and get a stable job, then I can spend on my own hard-earned cash.

So yeah, I'm a person with envy. It's hard not to fall into sins of wanting to have things that other people can afford to have. Yo just can't get away from it, I know I do. But I've learned to see things differently and being grateful of what I have now. As I reached adulthood and starting to have a better view on adult phase of life, I started to understand my parents' way of raising their children and I realized I can't get everything that I want. With all this evil envious side of me, it doesn't mean I hate my life. I'm in very much content of my simple life.

Dear God, please don't stop to make me good.

My rants will end now, until next post.
au revoir :)

It's 4.24am.

I have panda eyes and it's an unfortunate thing to have cos despite all the heavy make-up I put up on my face, it can still find its way to reemerge and make itself visible for people to see. You know panda eyes, the dark circles you have around your eyes. I have them and I think they will stay there forever.

Pandas are cute but I don't look cute with these eyes. They made me look older and tired.

Try to force myself to get some shut eyes!

Good night/Good morning :)

She's gonna blow!

At the moment, my brain is like the battlefield of WWII and Research Methodology is the culprit, the Nazi, the Japanese. MG-14, bazooka, mortar, M1 Garand, Kark98k kept blowing off to destroy my brain and I just hope no nuke nor atomic bomb drop in or else everything will end up like...

THIS!!!

Depressed

Have you ever feel like you were born stupid? I know I may not have the brain of einstein but today my brain just died on me. I love to learn new things, even learnt how to crochet last night from my mom but as I crochet today, I didn't improve much at all. Maybe I pushed myseld too hard or my patience level is just so low.

I hate this feeling. It made me ate a lot. I seriously ate a lot. Even now at 9.49 pm I still want to eat. I probably will later. I just can't help it!

 I hate me this feeling!

Bubye July, you know you're my favorite amongst all the months :)

It has been awhile since my last update and I have been very lazy to do anything. All I did was reading. Didn't even spend time for taking pictures, BAD Jessica!

Seriously, I may be the laziest blogger that you happened to follow unfortunately :(

So I haven't post anything for awhile and July is about to end. So what have I been doing in that long period of time you ask? Being lazy of course cos that's my forte. Haha! All I've been doing were reading, looking at pictures that would inspire me to do some photography for this upcoming semester break, celebrating my birthday with family ( in a small, very humble and very easy way), celebrating birthday with friends that I love ( they had a surprise party for my friends whom also born in july and I), texting, calling, television'ing', tweeting, go to class, study a little bit, assignments. I have stated clearly how uninteresting my life is, how pathetic. EEK /: 

Met Joel ( the boyfriend) on the 30th of July. Dating with him feels refreshing. Why I say it's refreshing? That's because we don't get to date all the time like most couples do. We only get to see each other for our monthly date ( yes, MONTHLY! It means we only date and see each other once a month). When we are finally reunited, it feels like we just coupled a few months ago and everything we do together seemed new and not boring. That's how we keep our love on fire :)

So July flies so fast and before I even realize, tomorrow is the first day of August. Many important dates on that month. My bro's and Joel's birthday, our anniversary :) Can't wait for that! I also can't wait for my final exam. I WANT MY SEMESTER BREAK TO COME FAST! But before that, have to struggle to get better grades to improve my CGPA, highly motivated ^_^

There's TWO things that I'm disappointed with myself, one of it is lack of taking pictures. I think I have rusted ALOT and it's TOTALLY NOT COOL MAN. Secondly, I bought a smartphone Samsung Galaxy S i9000 and left me broke. Yes, no money. NO ME GUSTA and I saw so many pretty clothes online that I want for myself. If only money grows on tree, if only :(

BTW, I have just created a new blog. It's a blog for Joel and I to post anything. It may be about us, what's interesting, random stuff. Here's the link to the blog and feel free to follow. :)

August, please be good to me. Puasa month, please let me stray away from the temptation of eating :)

Enough ramblings for now. Until next post!

Sigh.

It's 6.21am and you may thought that I've just woken up. WRONG! Big fat wrong. I didn't even get some sleep last night. Tried to but can't. Kept tossing, turning just to find a comfortable position for sleeping but failed. So I ended up watching a movie instead. The Sound of Music! It cheered me up a bit while watching it but when it's over, emo kicked in again. Wanted to text but credit is zero. Le sigh.

Last night was no good. I know I'm not the jealous type of person when it comes to relationship and if I do get jealous, it's just a minor one and that kind of feeling won't stay too long but last night was different. I have never even thought that I could get really serious ass jealous. Well, maybe that's the price I have to pay for being in a relationship. Feelings are very brittle.

You may feel happy, all jolly but it may turn 180 degrees very easily. That is what happened. I was okay earlier of the day but my night turned sour. Maybe it's the PMS that I'm having but maybe I am the jealous type and I don't even realized that until now. When jealousy conquered, I tend to be so sarcastic towards the person that made me feel that way. Probably because I want to let that person feel what I feel. Childish much? Maybe yes but I just can't help it. 

Okay, it's almost 7am. I should at least get a power nap before today's 10am class. Can't drive sleepy right? Good night or should I say bonne nuit.

P/s: God, I feel so alone now. Please let me feel okay ):

Just a shorty!

I haven't been online for a few days and I'm not even bothered by it. Weekend was AMAY-ZING and I miss my sayang ): He can finally online from home now cos he just got his streamyx connected so more skype you say? NO! He's just as lazy as I am which make me feel that we are like two peas in a pod.


Anything interesting happened throughout the week? Hmm, let me recap. So my lecturer Miss Yati left and heading to Perak to further her studies. The whole faculty had a small farewell party for her, we just got her a cake if you're wondering how small the farewell party is. Hahaha! So many memories that I have with her and her class is actually my first when I started studying in uni. She is a petite woman with a big attitude. Believe it or not, I'm gonna miss her and I'm not worry whether I would be able to see her again in the future or not cos she had told us that we are invited to her wedding. Can't wait to eat nasi minyak!!


Apart from that, the last movie of Transformers are now showing but to be frank, I never like it! Never even finish the first movie. So I'm not that crazy and all hyped like other people, who think like it's the epic movie of the year. Have they forgotten about Harry Potter?? I bet Harry Potter would beat Transformer hard! I am looking forward to the movie (Harry Potter, I mean) and I was thinking to buy premiere tickets, gonna watch 2D version with boyfie and 3D with my sister. Harry Potter fanatic much? (:


Watched Super 8 and it was boring!! Just like Green Lantern. That 2 movies including The Voices From The Grave are the lamest movies I've watched this year! Waste, I tell you!! For those who haven't watch all those 3 movies and wanted to watch it in cinema or downloading it, dengar la ckp saya. JANGAN LAH!! Waste of money and your laptop/ desktop space! P/s: Blake Lively, I love you but you look weird in brunette. Just saying.


Starting tomorrow is the third week of lectures but I still feel like I'm having my holidays. I don't care much about my studies, let alone my course notes. I have to get rid of this 'honeymoon' feeling before I ruin my exam result even more, seriously need to improve my grades! 

Isn't this nice??

Everyday I'm shufflin'!!

I don't think I'm the only one who loves that song very much. In fact, I listen to that song every freaking day. Since I listen to it, it got me into shuffling. Yes I know, the shuffling dance! Shuffling was really popular when I was in my high school years but I didn't like it back then. To me, it's a dance that the 'pilaks' would dance in public for 'fame'. I mean as if, right? haha.

So now I'm actually learning how to shuffle and it is really hard and what makes it even harder is, I'm easily tired because of my heavy physique so switching your left leg to your other leg part is hard for me even it's the basic and people said easiest part of shuffle dance. How I wish it's easy for me!

Will try harder so that I can dance to LMFAO's Party Rock Anthem! :)

Today, I sigh a lot.

Today has been such a boring, unproductive day *sigh*. Well, not really since I'm the one who did all the house chores but seriously, it's not a pleasure doing all of it cos I may say that I was forced and I don't like when someone force me to do stuff. When I woke up this morning, the first thing I do was to see myself at the mirror and I don't like what I see. It kinda get into me and it started to make me feel like shit. What a way to start a day! *sigh* So I went to brush my teeth and then got a nice shower. Put on clothes and I look again into the mirror, hoping that I would look better but it didn't. I look awful, like always and I was like 'Fuck today for making me feel down!' *SIGH!!*


I went straight to the kitchen to look for something to eat. Coffee was on the table, at least I have something to fill my tummy and that's fine with me cos I can live on coffee only. I looked at a pile of already washed clothes in a pail that needs to be dry, carried the pail outside so that I can hang them on the clothesline. I finished in just under 10 minutes cos this morning was hot and sunny and I don't want to get sunburn. I went inside as soon as I finished and cooked a pack of instant noodle for breakfast, not a healthy diet since I'm in the process of losing weight.


Wanted to watch TV in the living room but the floor was dusty and so is the furniture *sigh*. I went to take the broom and swept the floor, went to the toilet to get a pail of water, put some Ajax in, grabbed the mop. Mopping floor was actually a fun thing to do, I get to slide across the living room because the floor was wet and slippery. I switched on the radio, put on MCR's CD and there I was, rocking out and sliding across the room simultaneously! At least that was the only fun thing that I get to do and I didn't realize how much time I wasted on mopping. I quickly put away the mop and everything and went to the kitchen again to prepare lunch. I prepared rice and cooked some easy recipes, chicken soup with carrots and potatoes and some green veggies. 


I want to chat/text with someone to make me feel less down but everybody told me that they're not in the mood and that leave me with twitter *sigh*. I was tweeting away when some of my friends were tweeting too so at least I have them to tweet to. 


Such a down and lonely day today is. *sigh again*